Long Distance Relationships Suck #fact | Nerdz Playground

I thought I could handle being with the boyfriend on a long distance relationship since I?ve been on so many of them I?m used to having the person I care about being far away, but this time, I can?t handle it.

I saw a cute couple sitting across from me on the shuttle bus going back to my hotel and I think about me and the boyfriend, and I just crashed in my mind. I crashed so hard that I wanted to burst into tears.

Today is our ten month?anniversary?well we aren?t really celebrating it, but we?acknowledge?it since this will be the longest relationship we both have ever been in and it?s the first relationship I ever experienced what love is.

I wish I could describe this feeling I feel for him, but I can?t. It?s something you have to just experience and when you do you?ll know what it is as soon as you feel it.

Anyway, the bf and I have been dating since November and I met him at my old school. So we spent practically everyday together and I actually got to experience a real close relationship instead of these online ones I was getting into and that random mishap where I was dating someone who lived in my town, but never saw him. Seriously, he was five minutes up the road and he couldn?t even bother to see me or something.

Sorry about that small little rant.

Anyway?

I?m so upset right now.

I cried into my pillow just now and I have this overwhelming feeling to just leave my school now. I don?t want to be here. I want to be in my old school. I want to be with the man I love. I want to feel him close to me.

I just want him close?

I?m so used to having him near by and doing cute little boyfriend things for me. I knew I would miss him, but I didn?t think it would hurt this much. I wasn?t prepared for this and didn?t think I could feel this way either.

I?m not the type to be affectionate guys. I?m not even that way with my family. And I barely hug and kiss the bf on a whim. He?s almost always the one who starts it. There are moments when I will initiate the stuff, and that?s when you know I really mean it, because I just don?t do it. I can?t for whatever reason. My brain finds it strange, but when I do get in that mood, I really mean it.

My chest feels funny, my heart is racing.

The one thing I?m afraid of is losing him.

I hope I never have to experience that, because I know deep down, he?s going to be the man I marry.

If it doesn?t happen, so be it.

Let?s hope I don?t go insane though?

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